When It Rains It
Pours
SS by Maddie6235
PG-13
It was raining. Raining really hard. She looked out of her hotel room
window, and the only thing she could see was a big gray cloud. She felt like
it was over her. Her mind felt like it was spinning, spinning out of control.
She had just left her family, the only sane thing in her life right now.
Things kept happening to her. Everything she did was proclaimed wrong. She
didn't even want to turn on the T.V. or radio because she could hear the
headlines already, " Britney Spears is at it again." Or " Britney Spears is
not that innocent." That's not what she felt like hearing. Pressure kept
pouring on her like the raindrops were pouring on the ground. Her life was
giving her a headache like the thunder outside.
Any noise felt like Chinese water torture. All she wanted to do was crawl
under the covers and cry. Cry because she was sad, cry because she was angry,
cry because she was mad, cry because she was overwhelmed, cry because that's
all she felt like doing.
She stood up and she felt like she weighed one thousand pounds because of
all of the pressure and stress she was under. But she looked in the mirror
and realized that she wasn't fat at all, she lost weight.
She tried to eat something but she didn't even feel like picking up the
phone for room service, her head was pounding like the FBI at your door.
She wished she could just wake up and all of this be gone. She wished her
mama could still chase all of her problems away. But isn't this what she has
wanted all along? She got to be a woman, to be single, and being able to have
fun. Sure it was fun in the beginning, but now it wasn't fun at all, now she
wanted to have someone to truly love her, not just post it on the Internet.
She stupidly turned on the radio, and as things couldn't get any worse
they did. It was weird how people you didn't even know can make you feel
horrible. All the sudden the lights went out. Britney just sat there. The
dark felt like her life, she felt she couldn't control her life anymore just
like the way she couldn't control the lights going back on.
A tear dripped down her cheek. It's funny how she got exactly what she
wanted. She got to be free and she got to be a young single woman. But now
that's not what she wanted at all. She did the partying and the dating but
she's sick of it now. It gets you no were. And she wished she could have
realized that sooner. Now she has to go back to the industry facing questions
about Justin, Fred, Colin, and her partying.
She thought about Justin. She realized that when she was with him it was
so much easier, and that she was so much more at peace. But four years and
one big ring into it she felt like she needed to be single. He was hurt,
really hurt. She wasn't, until now. Now it hits her, now she gets her first
taste of heartbreak.
But not only does she feel that right now, but she also has a feeling of
humiliation. How someone could go on the radio and tell everyone about her
personal life really blew her mind.
She had so many feelings at once like a rainbow has many colors at once.
She looked outside the window and saw a rainbow. After it rained rainbows
always made her feel happier, and full of hope. But she didn't feel those
feelings now, she felt defeated.
Britney sat back and tried to think why she was really feeling like this.
And she relished that the reason was because she was still in love with
Justin. She didn't realize it before, because she hung out with friends and
partied, but now the time she was alone and sad the one person she wanted to
call was Justin, but they broke up almost a year ago. She kicked herself for
not realizing it sooner, now she feared it would be too late. She closed her
eyes. Right before she drifted off to sleep, the phone rang. She was upset
that her phone was ringing because she didn't feel like talking she wanted to
sleep. The phone kept ringing and something told her to pick it up.
" Hello?" Britney said into the phone.
" Hey" she recognized the voice right away. Only now, it didn't sound
like it had when they had talked for hours when they missed each other or to
wish each other good luck. It sounded lost and empty. She recognized it from
watching the interviews shortly after the break up. She wondered what was
wrong. She wanted to talk to him and find out and maybe even tell him how she
felt.
As the sun peaked through her window she thought about how she
wanted to talk to Justin until it went away again. To get to know him over
again and find out what was going on in his life.
"Britney? You there I um just wanted to call and uh say hi"
All that hope for nothing!
"Actually, I wanted to talk and hear your voice."
God it felt so good to hear his voice and especially because of what he just
said.
"Me too. Where should we start" She was actually kind of nervous. It was
crazy. She was nervous to talk to someone she was engaged to at one point,
and had known since she was 12.
"Well, Brit I can't believe what Fred did to you. Trace asked if I
thought it was true and I flipped. I know you would never act like that. Are
you ok?"
"I wasn't at first but, I'm ok I can't let people like him really
bother me."
"Do you think we could ever get back together ? Do you think it
would be the same? Do you want to?"
Yes, yes and yes. But how was she going to tell him that? She was so happy.
" Yes Justin, I think we could."
Some things are just meant to be.