Neither One of Us
SS by Ing
It’s sad to think
We’re not gonna make it
And it’s gotten to the point
Where we just can’t fake it
I was thinking about you again today; but that's nothing new because I think
about you every day, every hour, every minute, every second; even in my dreams
there is no escaping you. You have taken over my mind, body and soul. Why can't
you leave me in peace? Why won’t you release me from this limbo I am in? Let
me move on with my life and maybe find a love that's real - a love that I can
feel. A love that is given back to me instead of this total aching need I have
for you.
I really do try to let you go, I flirt and dance with other men but can only
imagine I’m in your arms. As they hold me to their chests; my head resting
against them as their hands caress my back. They move down to cup the cheeks of
my bottom pulling me in close to feel the hardness growing in them. When I push
them away, do they see me as a tease or do they see the pain in my eyes of a
woman still in love with another man?
Ooh, ooh, ooh, for some ungodly reason
We just won’t let it die [Let it die]
I guess neither one of us [Neither one of us]
Wants to be the first to say goodbye
When I lie alone in my bed, with darkness all around me, I can hear your
breathing - feel your lips on mine, feel you moving down my body searching out
all the hidden places. Brushing against the swell of my nipples as they respond
under the touch of tender hands… but they are not your hands, are they? Never
yours, only mine.
As I am forced to respond to the growing need, thoughts of you rise inside me.
The heat spreads through my body as fingers seek out the hot moist place buried
between my legs, moving slowly . I have to have this release. I am drowning in
my need for you but as I bring myself to another unsatisfactory orgasm I feel so
empty, so unfulfilled. I need to have your hardness inside me. Feel you slide it
in and out, our movements speeding up as our bodies become one.
I keep wondering [Wondering]
What I’m gonna do without you [Do without you]
And I guess you must be
Wondering the same thing too
When I try to find solace in my favorite place down on the beach, my thoughts
turn to you as I sit staring at the sea, It laps against the shore. In my mind I
can see us there – together, laughing, as we walk along the water’s edge
with our hands entwined. I can see us lying down together in the shadows of the
sand dunes your mouth seeking mine, your lips caressing my neck as your hands
move down to remove my clothes. My fingers stroking you, my mouth licking the
saltiness of the sea from your body and my hands moving down to release your
growing hardness. I can see you move over me and my legs opening to receive you,
wrapping around your waist as I pull you deep inside. My body grinding against
yours as I move in time to your thrusts; see our bodies tremble as our orgasms
take over.
So we go on
Go on together living a lie [Living a lie]
Because I guess neither one of us [Neither one of us]
Wants to be the first to say goodbye
I find no release from you or my thoughts even when I take a walk by the pond.
You are there, leaning against a tree my fingers caressing you as my mouth loves
you, my lips moving up and down your shaft, my tongue licking away as I am
sucking you deep into my mouth. I see your hips moving as your thrusts get
faster your breathing heavier as you feel the warmth and wetness inside my
mouth. I feel the swelling and pulsating of your cock as my tongue continues
licking , as I suck the shaft deep into my throat, my fingers cupping and
stroking you. Then the shuddering of your body as your cum fills my mouth as I
suck and lick you dry.
Oh, oh, oh, every time I find the nerve
Every time I find the nerve to say I’m leavin’ [Leavin’]
Old memories, those old memories
Get in my way [My way], ooh…hoo… [My way]
In the shower you are there. We are massaging shower gel onto each others
bodies. The hot soapy water is running in rivers down our bodies, your mouth
moving over my breasts, licking on my nipples as you take turns sucking each one
into your mouth. I open my legs for you as your head moves down, your tongue
plunging deep into my body, locking your lips over my clit as you suck it deep
into your mouth. Your tongue continues licking inside me as an orgasm rushes
though me. You push me back against the cold tiles and thrust into me, ramming
it home hard and fast. I hold you tight to me, my mouth closing over yours as
our cum meets and mixes together.
Oh, ho, ho, ho, Lord knows it’s only me
Oh, he knows it’s only me that I’m deceivin’
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, when it comes to sayin’ goodbye
That’s a simple word that I just cannot say
I know if you could read this you would think it was not love but lust that I
feel but nothing could be less true. Did you know that you were the first man I
ever truly loved .The only man I have ever I felt secure enough to want to
explore my sexuality with? But it does not matter now, does it? Maybe I should
have told you all this before… but now it's too late and you are lost to me.
Why did you leave me alone to live everyday with this emptiness inside me? We
could have been so good together. Didn't you know how much I loved you? How I
adored you and worshiped the very ground you walked on?
There can be no way, there can be no way
This can have a happy ending [Happy ending], no, no
So we just go on [Just go on]
Hurting and pretending
I knew you were scared but I never really understood what you were scared of.
Me? Was I too pushy? Did I show my love for you too much or not enough? Or were
you afraid you were not man enough to cope with my needs? Were we going to fast?
Did you feel you were missing out on something? Was It not enough? Was It too
much? Did you drown in US?
Did you not realize that my love for you could have released that man that I
know you could be, the one who needs to be understood? Did you know that when I
looked into your eyes I could see the loneliness and emptiness of an unfulfilled
soul that no one else did? I could have helped you to overcome your worries,
shown you how to open your heart fully and unlock the passions buried deep
inside you. I could have shown you how to give and receive love, proved to you
that you are all the man you ever hoped you could be! The man that I know you
are.
And convincing ourselves
To give it just one more try [One more try]
Because neither one of us [Neither on of us], ooh…ooh…
Wants to be the first to say
Do these thoughts of mine reach out to you in the dead of the night? Do you hear
me cry? Do you understand that my tears are not only for me but for you too; for
the cruel waste of a man that was always there, but you let the spirit die. You
let the one thing that could bring you alive, slip away from you.
You once told me you loved me. How will I ever know if that was true or just
empty words said because that's what you thought I wanted to hear? That's why I
cannot move on, because even if the truth would have hurt me I needed to know
it.
Neither one of us [Neither one of us]
Wants to be the first to say, ooh
Neither one of us [Neither one of us]
Wants to be the first to say
Why is it that the one I need the most, the only one who could take away this
pain, has to be the one who caused it? Did you ever really know how very much I
loved you? I think you did know . Maybe the fear of what we had scared you ,
because I know it scared me too. I do know that I will never have the privilege
of ever loving the same way again or having someone love me the way you loved
me?
Somehow I don't think I ever will! so maybe the times come for me to try to say
GOODBYE.
Farewell, my love, goodbye [Goodbye]