I Love This Woman
SS by Chris

Spring 2004

Justin and Cameron are spending a romantic weekend together away from everybody and everything. 

“Justin, dinner is about ready,” Cameron yells up at the bedroom where Justin is taking a shower.

A few minutes later, Justin comes down stairs and walks around the dining room to find candles lit everywhere, and the radio playing in the background. 

“Hi sweetie,” Cameron says as she wraps her arms around him and leads him to the table where dinner is sitting on the plates and candles illuminate the area.

“Cameron, you shouldn’t have gone to all this trouble for me.  I’m the one who is supposed to do this for you,” he said placing a sweet yet sexy kiss on her lips.

“But I enjoyed doing this.  Plus this is for all the times that you did it to me,” she said sitting down.

Dinner was going smoothly, when she asked him to dance.

They were both swaying to the music and then the song ended and they stopped.  They stood there and stared at one another for a while.

Then Cameron got down on one knee.

“Cameron what are you doing?” Justin said shocked

“Let me talk would ya.”

“Justin, I love you and I would be honored if you would become my husband,” she said and pulled out a ring.

Justin just stood there and stared at her.  He couldn’t believe what he had just heard.

He just stared at her.  Then something caught his attention…

“From her new CD In The Zone, this is Britney Spears’ latest song entitled Everytime

            Notice Me

            Take my hand

            Follow me

            Strangers when

“Justin, did you hear me,” Cameron said trying to get his attention.

While he was still staring at her, he was not paying any attention to her, but to the song and voice playing on the radio.

I may have made it rain

Please forgive me

My weakness caused you pain

And this song’s my sorry

Justin started to tear up, as he continued to listen to the song.  It wasn’t the first time that he had heard it, but every time that he did, he cried. 

Meanwhile, Cameron got up and turned the radio off.

“Justin, earth to Justin.” She yelled at him

“Yeah, I’m sorry what were you saying.  I got distracted.” He said

“Never mind,” she yelled and then stormed off up the stairs.

“Cameron wait,” Justin yelled after her and followed her up the stairs

“What is the matter,” he said walking over to her as she sat on the bed crying

“Nothing is wrong.  Nothing at all,” she said to him

“Cam, I can’t help if you don’t tell me what is wrong.”

“If I wanted your help I would have asked for it,” she said getting up and running out the front door, slamming it behind her.

Justin had heard what Cameron had been saying.  He knew that he had just been proposed to by this insanely beautiful woman, but all he could think of was Britney.

Justin needed help in figuring this problem out.  He knew what is mother would say, so he didn’t call her.  He knew what Johnny would say, and Joey and Lance and Chris and especially Trace.  The only friend that he knew would give him a straight answer was JC.

“Hello,” JC said

“Hey Jayce.  It’s J.  Man I have a problem and I need your help with it.”

“What’s the matter J?  I’m here to help anyway that I can.”

“Well, I’m stuck between two women.  One who I love more than life itself and the other whom I don’t want to hurt because I love this other woman.”

“Well, J.  You have to be true to yourself.  If you’re not true to yourself than you can’t help either of these two women.  You have to make sure that you really love this woman and that you don’t love this other woman.  Then you have to do what is best for you.  What will make you the happiest?  If you’re not happy with this other woman than you’re not doing her any good.  And if you stay with her while you love another, you’re not doing anyone any good.  You have to do what is best for you and that will make others around you happy as well.”

“Thanks Jayce.  I knew you would give me a straight answer,” Justin said

“Anytime man.  Let me know how you do.”

And they both hung up.

Justin continued to think about what JC had said to him.

Did he really love Cameron enough to marry her?  Was Cameron the one he wanted to spend the rest of his life with? 

Did he still love Britney like he did before?  Was Britney the one he wanted to spend the rest of his life with?  Was Britney willing let go of the past to move on with him?

All these questions were flowing through his head at a rapid pace. 

The only way he knew how to answer any of them was to write the answers down on paper.

He wrote out everything that he loved about Cameron.  Then he wrote out everything that he loved about Britney.  The difference between what he wrote about Cameron and what he wrote about Britney told the story.  Now came the hard part.  Doing what was going to make him happy.

Justin waited the entire night for Cameron to come home, but she never did.  He figured that she went to another hotel or went back home early.  He knew that she was angry, but at least she could have told him.  He was worried about her safety. 

Finally, about 10 the next morning, she returned.

“Where have you been?  I’ve been worried about you,” Justin said when she walked into the bedroom.

“Thinking about us.  Justin answer me honestly.  Do you still love her?” she said

Justin looked at her and said, “Yeah, I do.  I always have and I always will.”

“Then go find her and be happy.” Cameron said walking over and starting to pack her things

“What are you talking about?  I am happy with you,” Justin said

“Justin, don’t lie to yourself.  I can see it in your eyes anytime she is brought up.  I see the pain there.  I see the love still burning within you.  Anything that even resembles her you pay attention to.  You love her like I have never seen anybody love another person.  She is the one that you are meant to spend your life with.  So, don’t hold yourself away from her, because you don’t want to hurt me.  I know that you love her and if that makes you happy, than it makes me happy,” she said walking over and sitting next to him on the bed.

“Now go and find your queen,” she said pushing him towards the door.

“I’ll never forget you Cameron.  You’re a wonderful person.  Don’t let anybody tell you differently,” Justin said and then kissed her and left.

Justin was now on his way to finding his love.

He flew to Kentwood.  He knew that she would be at home because her tour was about to start. And she always went home before the start of a tour.  It helped her to relax a little before the wear and tear of living on the road for three months.

He drove to her house and sure enough, she was home.  He pulled into the drive and parked.  He didn’t knock on the door.  He wanted her to be the first to see him.  He needed to find a way to get her attention and only her attention.  Then he kicked some rocks and an idea popped into his head.

He walked to her part of the house.  She had a whole side of the house to herself and he knew right where her bedroom was.  He started tossing rocks at her window hoping she was there. 

He thought he saw the curtains move so he pulled the letter that he wrote about her out of his pocket and started reading.

I Love this Woman

I Love her smile

I Love her heart

I Love her intelligence

I love her compassion

I love her personality

I love her inner strength

I love her sense of humor

I love her brown eyes

I love her hair

I love her voice

I love her toughness

I love her family

I love her cooking

I love the way she plays with her hair

I love the way she gets quite when she is nervous

I love the way she sounds when she is sleeping

I love the way she stretches when she wakes up

I love the way she looks at me

I love the way she makes me feel so proud

I don’t love her stubbornness, but because it is a part of her, I love it anyway

I love everything about her.

I would continue but the list is too long.

The woman that I love is Britney Jean Spears.

Justin looked up as he finished reading to find Britney staring out the window at him crying.

Then the next moment she was gone. 

He just started at the window in disbelief.  Was she really over him? 

His answer came when she came running around the corner of the house and into his arms.

“Oh God, how I love this woman.  Never take her away from me again,” he said while holding on to her