Love Always

Britney sat on the sofa with the letter in her hand. It was the last thing
she had expected and the last person she had expected anything like that
from. He had always been there. Always here friend. But this was out of the
blue, or had she just missed the signals because she was so wrapped up in
her own life to pay much attention.

Britney,

There are so many things that I need to say. There are so many things that I
see in you, that you don't see in yourself. The nature of it all sits so
well in your being. You can't see past your hurt and pain to see what's in
front of you.

I know we both have differences of opinions on this matter.And I know that
what you see in me is not what you're looking for right now. But what I feel
for you is more than I've ever felt in my whole life. I can feel my entire
soul flow with love every time I think of you, see you, even when I'm even
sitting next to you. That's why I chose to disappear for awhile. It was
getting too hard to be near you and not act on what I was feeling, but you
were too vunarable and I didn't want to hurt you any more than you had
already been hurt.

It's the simple things that you do that make me love you. The way you brush
your hair away from your face and tuck it behind your ear. The way your lips
curve when you smile. Your innocence in life itself, and the love and
respect that you show for others, blows me away. With the kindness and care
that you have for others, that's the main reason why I feel this way.
Everything about you makes me feel this way.

Every time I close my eyes there you are staring back at me, never wanting
to open them again. Because when I do the image of you will disappear. So
many nights I've imagined you in my bed. Not just making love to you, but
holding you, kissing you, touching you. To lay there watching you sleep next
to me, would be a sensation that I only dream of. There is not a day that
goes by that I don't think of you, that I don't love you, if only you felt
the same.

Our friendship means the world to me. It's the only thing that I have from
you; it's the only thing that you'll give to me. I hate the fact that I can
love you all I want, I can give you so many things and offer you so many
choices in love, but as I said before, you won't see past the love that is
holding you back.

So even if I do attempt in giving you this letter, there's something that I
might lose, our friendship, the only thing that's keeping me sane. Our
friendship that we share is the only thing that I look forward to each and
everyday. Even if its just a phone call or an email its something, its a
connection to you.

But waiting is getting painful and I am getting tired of waiting to be the
one man that makes you happy. Living off of whispers and dreams alone is not
enough on my heart. This love that I have for you is stronger, and it grows
with each and every moment that I spend with you. Each time you ask
something of me, or each time I see you walk out the door, each time I see
you smile. I try harder, harder still, not to hold you or kiss you goodbye.

But this I'll tell you, I've loved you and always will. Even though you
don't feel the same way as I do, I'll understand. If you ask me to show you
how to love, I'll show you. If you ask me to love you, I'll love you. But
never, if you shall ever ask me to never love you again, that is something
I'll never ever do. I can never stop loving you.

Love Always,

Now what was she to do, she thought as she sat there with the letter in her
hand. It was the last thing she had expected and the last person she had expected anything like that
from. He had always been there. Always here friend. But this was out of the
blue, or had she just missed the signals because she was so wrapped up in
her own life to pay much attention. He didn't know that she was back with Justin.