Don't Wanna Try No More
SS by Fairy

Justin POV

       I just walked into the house. I had to get out last night, me and Brit got in a bad fight and I just couldn't be around her. Ever since she finished her tour in Europe she has been starting fights with me about the dumbest things. Then it just leads to us both screaming at each other until I just walk out of the house because I can't take it. Usually I would be so happy being able to spend time with her, but its been pure hell. We are supposed to be getting married in a month and I don't even want to be around her.

       "Justin!!"
       "What Britney?"
       "Where the hell were you?"
       "I was just out walking around, thinking about things."
       "Well, why the hell didn't you tell me you were leaving?"
       "Look Brit, I don't feel like starting this shit right now ok, I'm going to go take a shower."
       "Oh yeah your always the one to run away when things start getting tough, why can't you be strong for once and not be such a damn baby!"
       "Why the hell are you talking about, I'm leaving because I don't feel like hearing your mouth every damn second of the day."
       "Why just because your parents fought all the time, after your sister died because your Dad beat your Mom too much when she was pregnant!"
       "Britney don't ever talk about my parents like that ever again. You know I don't like to talk about my sisters death, why are you being such a bitch?"
       "Your calling me a bitch, your the one who's too afraid that you'll end up like your parents, so everytime we have a fight you walk out because you can't take it."
       "You know what I don't want to be with you anymore, I'm leaving all this shit Britney, you can go find someone else to yell at!"

I can't believe you had the nerve to say the things you said
They hurt so bad that they ended our relationship
i can't believe it .. 4 years go down the drain
Oh how i wish things would of happened so differently

       "Brit I have tried to get you to be happy so many times but your just not satisfied anymore. I can't give you what you want anymore so I'm just going  to leave and let you find someone else. I don't know what I do to make you get so mad at me but really I'm leaving, its over."

I try'd to save it so many times but you still couldn't see
You kept insistin' and resistin' that you would not fall again

       I'm in our bedroom packing all the essential things I'll need. I'll just send someone to get my things later. Britney comes into the room, tears falling rapidly down her face. She sits on the bed and starts taking everything out of the suitcases I've already filled up.

       "J, I'm so sorry, please I didn't mean what I said, don't leave me please I need you, without you I'm lost."
       "No, Brit I can't take this anymore, I'm leaving and there's nothing you can do to change that, you messed this up not me."
      
       I put my stuff back in the suitcases she took out and zip all of them up. Britney is now on the floor holding onto my leg, not letting me go.

       "Justin please, I really need you with me, please Justin don't leave."

And now you tryin' to tell me that your sorry
And your tryin' to come back home
Your tellin' me you really need me crying beggin both knees are on the floor

       I unwrap Britney's hands from my legs, I stand her up, give her a hug and a kiss on the cheek. Tears are burning my eyes as I turn around with my suitcases and I start to walk out the door. As I'm about to turn out of the room I look back in one more time to see Britney on the ground in a ball crying so bad that she's shaking.

       "Brit, I love you, Don't ever forget that."

       And with that I'm going down the stairs looking around our house, trying to remember every little detail about it. I open the front door and walk out to my car. I put my stuff in the trunk and get in the drivers seat. I put my head on the steering wheel and now the tears fall. I don't move, I can't, I just can't seem to go away from our home.

But baby I
Don't' wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
You keep insisting when you know our love is out the door
Don't wanna try don't wanna try cause all we do is fight and say the things
I hurt you bad to when we both being to cry
Don't wanna try don't wanna try I 'bout just had enough its been a rough road
Baby just let it go
Don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
Tell me whats the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt out love

       As I sit here I think about all the night long conversations we have on the phone when we were way from each other. We used to talk about having our own place and being able to wake up in each others arms every morning. But those were a long time ago, its time to move on.

You and I had many conversations on the telephone
Talks about one day we having a place of our own
Wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table
But all of that just seems so far away from me
Had to wake up face reality

       Then we got our own place and I proposed to her, thinking for sure that she was the only one for me. I don't think you saw what we really had maybe she took everything for granted. We were planning on having a family together and being together forever. Now as I pick my head up from the steering wheel, I look up to our window and see Britney looking down at me. Our eyes lock and for a second I want to run back in there and tell her everything will be ok and that we'll get through this. But I don't, I turn my car on and drive out of our driveway never once looking at her because I know I'll just go back there.

It all just seem to good to be true after all you put me through
And now you tryin' to tell me that your sorry
And you tryin' to come back home
You tellin' me that you really need me
Crying beggin both knees are on the floor

       My cell phone rings and I answer it having a good idea of who it is.

       "Hello"
       "J, please come back I'm so sorry, I need you so bad."
       "No, Brit, I'm not coming back, you messed this up and there is no way to fix it now. I have to go, I love you Brit, Bye."

       With that I hang up and turn off my phone before she can say anything.

But baby I
Don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
You keep insistin when you know our love is out the door
Don't wanna try don't wanna try cause all we do is fight and say the things
I hurt you bad to when we both begin to cry
Don't wanna try don't wanna try I bout just had enough its been a rough road
Baby just let it go
Don't wanna try don't wanna try don't wanna try no more
Tell me whats the use of holdin on when all we do is hurt our love

       I now know that I don't wanna try to be with her if she's just going to treat me so bad. I don't want to try no more.

Don't wanna try don't wanna try
Don't wanna try no more
Don't wanna try don't wanna try

Song by Frankie J