Deep Within the Mind
SS by Tiffany
Bryan's POV
I see my sister sitting before me looking at a picture. She smiles "You
know Bryan, I used to think Justin could clean up his act and we could be
together. I guess he did not. He could not. I have left him so many messages he
has not returned." Her voice breaks at the end.
"Britney you should not blame yourself. You know Lenny probably deleted
those messages and did not let-" She cuts me off before I can finish
"Bryan don't try to blame other people! God. You don't get it do you? Have
you seen the papers? Have you heard the interviews? Obviously you haven't. God,
he could have returned half those messages and for what?"
"Britney stop trying to blame Justin for everything. It does not help! YOU
know Lenny hid those things from Justin. You yourself know he was the one to
ruin your relationship. Remember? Ken tried to help you. Lenny stopped him.
Britney when are you going to learn to not blame yourself for everything?
Britney just listen to me. Please. I know you're going through a tough time in
your life. Please, let some one support you" I pleaded
"Bryan...I wanted to be the strong one. I wanted to be the one that did not
care. I was the one that wanted to be the one to move on first. Me. Britney
Spears. Not ex-girlfriend of Pop Prince" Britney cried. I held her in my
arms and rocked her back and forth. Just as I did 10 years ago when Great
Grandma Lucy died. I rubbed her back
"It's not fair Bryan. It's not" Britney .
"Nothing is it?" I chuckled
"Shut up"
I laughed. Britney probably got my shirt soaked last night crying onto my
shoulder. But I did not care. She was my little sister and she need me.
Jamie Lynn's POV
I saw my big sister come home to Kentwood today. Not the Britney Spears. Not Pop
Princess. Jamie Lynn's big caring and loving sister. I ran up to her and hugged
her as she stepped of the plane.
"Hey little one. I got a surprise for you" Britney smiled hugging me
back.
"What what is it?" I asked eagerly
"You'll have to see" Britney laughed.
"PLEASE?" I begged
"OK, OK" She chuckled
"Look over there" She pointed. I did as she told.
"Britney! I love you I love I love you! You're the greatest big sister in
the world!" I squealed
"I know I know. Are you going to go get them?" She asked
I ran over to MO and took the two leashes from him. He laughed as I looked up at
him.
"Did you tell my sister to get them?" I asked knowing he knew I wanted
them
"Maybe." He smiled
"MO! You promised!"
"Well see your big sister was crying about a certain man and I had to
distract her mind. Do you really want to see your sister to cry over the
past?" He asked picking me up.
I pocked him on the head "OW!"
"See it hurts does not it?" I asked smiling
"Yeah" He said rubbing his head while still holding me up
"Well it's in the past. The past is always going to hurt somehow" I
replied.
"You're are going to be a wise person when you grow up you know that? A
very wise person" He laughed taking me and my two poodles over to my sister
and mom
"No I'm going to be President" I answered as he set me down. He
laughed
"You happy now? I got your white poodles. You can dye them any color you
want" Britney said crouching down to eye level.
"Any color?"
"Any color"
"Baby blue and hot pink" I smiled.
"OK. Hey those are my favorite colors you know that?" She asked
rubbing my hair.
"Yeah. Mine too." I smiled holding one and holding the leash of the
other
That was the most happiest day I can think of that my sister was not tied up in
her schedule. She wasn't THE Britney Spears. She was the big sister. She was
just Britney Jean Spears. Girl I have known since before I can remember.
Lynn's POV (Britney's MOM)
I smile at my two daughters as they look at the colors of dye in the Pet Salon
Shop in New Orleans. Jamie Lynn got her poodles two days ago and they hadn't
dyed them yet. Today they are though. We decided to let MO have the day off.
Along with Fe. We have been around town today and a lot of fans noticed her. She
signed autographs and then returned to her privet life. The one she keeps
secret. I smiled as they watched the hair stylists dye Jamie's poodles. It came
out hot pink. Of all colors. I rolled my eyes as I held the light blue one in my
arms. I smiled down at it. It reminded me of Justin. I smiled at the old
memories we have together. I frowned when I thought about the present. He was
publicizing my babies relationship with him. Dating a blond whose ego is as
large as her back side. I smiled as they brought the other poodle over.
"Mama look" Jamie Lynn smiled excitedly
"My my. What is with the color?" I asked touching it.
"Mama. It is my most favorite color in the whole world." She smiled as
she rolled her eyes. I laughed. It shocked me to see how much of Britney I saw
in her.
"Well come on. If we're going to catch that movie we should get going.
ready girls?" I asked as Britney finished paying the cashier.
"Yep" They answered in unison. I walked out the door and got into my
Mercedes. We put the poodles in the back with Jamie Lynn and headed to the
movies.
"Mama don't you think it's strange that the movie theater baby sits your
animals while you watch the movie?" Jamie Lynn asked as I put the top up on
the car. I laughed as I turned on the air conditioner
"Sort of. Don't you think it's weird to dye animals weird colors?"
"Mama!" Jamie Lynn laughed.
"I'm just kidding." I said as we stepped into the movie theater. We
put the poodles in with the pet watcher. We got our tickets and got our seats
way in the back. That day was just me and my two daughters. Not Jamie Spears
from All That. Not Britney Spears the Pop Princess. Just Jamie and Britney. Too
bad the future had a misty fog in it. One I'm sure my daughter could get
through.
Jamie's POV (Britney's DAD)
I watch my daughter get ready for the VMA's. It's funny how one day she's going
to the prom and the next an awards show. I sighed as I watched her have her
makeup done by the stylist. Tonight she had to turn into Britney Spears; Pop
Princess. I smiled
"You look beautiful Brit" I smiled as I hugged her before she got into
the limo with Lynn and Jamie Lynn.
"Thanks daddy." She smiled kissing my cheek and getting in the limo. I
smiled back waving as the limo pulled out of her L.A. home. I turned back and
walked into the house
"Dad when do you think she'll be happy?" Bryan asked as I walked into
the living room. She was holding a picture of her and Justin up.
"I don't know son. Maybe when he lightens up and tries to get her back. I
don't know" I sighed sitting on the couch. I hated to go to those award
shows. I did not want to be there to see Justin when 4 awards and Britney go
away with none. He flied through his solo career on that video and song. My baby
put him out there. And here she is. Not going as low as he is to get attention
and publicity. I turned the television onto 13. I smiled as I saw they were
interviewing Britney and Jamie Lynn. That night Britney won 4 awards. That night
I saw in her eyes the Britney Jean Spears I knew and loved.
Trace's POV
I look to see my best friend sitting on the couch. His knees to his chest.
"What am I doing Trace? What am I doing to me and Brit?" He asked as
he looked up at me.
"Justin, you yourself know you shouldn't have done the things you
did." I sighed
"I had to get my solo career going didn't I?" He asked innocently
"Yeah that's right. Why not ruin my ex-girlfriend in the process. I don't
think she'll mind. You know what I don't think she'll mind one bit if I tell
secrets about my relationship. I don't think she'll mind one bit if I Justin
Timberlake boast to the world that I took her virginity. You know maybe if I
start dating women more than 10 years older than me, she will be jealous. Here's
the thing Justin! She did care about the secrets! The lies! And she did not care
about Alyssa or Cameron!" I yelled walking to doorway.
"It was not like that" He cried
"Justin you and I both know it was. You hurt her. And your paying for it.
Oh and some clues. She was at the VMA's tonight. She did not look as happy
herself." I sighed walking out of his apartment. Maybe Lynn's, Lynn's and
Jamie's and my plan will work. I hope.
Lynn's POV (Justin's MOM)
I smile as I see Justin perform. He's loved it ever since he could dance. He
finishes leaving the fans screaming for more. He comes backstage and hugs me.
"That was great!" I congratulate him.
"Thanks Mama" He smiles kissing my cheek. It's weird. Cameron died 3
weeks ago and he is not as shattered as he was when Britney and him broke up. I
guess he did not love her as strongly. I laugh as I see him and JC spurt water
at each other. They smile and continue. These are the boys I know. Justin
Timberlake, not the Pop Prince, but the one who cares for all. And then JC. The
goof ball. I really hop our plan works.
"Justin! We're going to go to Mon`Chere's. Come on!" I yell so he can
hear me. Justin and JC follow me out to the car. Oh please let Lynn be there
with Britney.
Justin's POV
"JC that's the stupidest joke ever!" I laugh punching him in the
shoulder.
"Maybe to you. But you see, Carol does not wear a bra on stage" He
wiggles his eye brows. Me and My mother laugh as we arrive at the coffee and
cake place
"Oh my god" I laugh
"My god too" He says as he walk in. We immediately stop laughing as I
come face to face with Lynn, Jamie Lynn, and Britney. She almost drops her
coffee.
"Hello Lynn." Lynn greets my mother with a huge smile
"Hey. How you doing?" My mother asks as they give each other a hug
careful not to spill Lynn's coffee. JC, Britney, Jamie Lynn and I share glances
as we look at them.
"Hey Justin! We're going to go to diner with them tonight at pizza
hut." My mother says happily. I have a weird feeling in my stomach but pay
no attention.
"We are?" Me and Britney ask at the same time. We look at each other.
"Yep" Lynn says as our mother drag us out. I see JC and Jamie Lynn
smile at each other. OK now something is up. They sit me and Britney in them
middle and JC and Jamie Lynn on each side. Now something is up.
We arrive and are seated in the non smoking area. Britney and I ignore each
other as we are seated across from each other. JC, Jamie Lynn and our mother are
conversing as they order a diner for 6 meal. I decide to start up a conversation
with Britney.
"So um...how are you doing?" I ask smiling
"Alright. A little weird. but alright" She smiles back. God how I have
missed that smile!
"Great CD. Love it" I say unexpectedly. She looks up quickly
"You actually bought it?" She asks
"Yeah...and I heard you bought mine too." I smile looking into her
eyes. Now I can see the kindness and love.
"Yeah. I love yours too. Except one infamous song" She laughs
"Hey. Lenny told me too do it. He said you-" She cuts me off
"Let's leave it in the past and work on the future" She sighs placing
her menu with the waitress as she hands her Mt. Dew.
"Alright." I whisper to her " Britt, do you think maybe we can
get back together?" I ask
"Yeah...if we tried to-"
"No trying. We are going to let the schedules go as they go, but we have
more control of our career's now. I think we can work it out." I smile
"Yeah we can" She smiles back.
I think now I realize I made a terrific choice that night. Britney and I have
been married for 6 months now. We're planning to have a baby in a few years just
not right now. We're 24 and still living life. You'll know when we do have a
baby. It will be in the tabloids some how.