It's All Coming Back to Me
SS by Samantha D

Part 1

Britney’s P.O.V

There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window

There were so many times that all I seemed to do was reminisce of what we had. No matter how much time passed by…I was still stuck in the past. I just couldn’t surpass the perfect life that I once had. It was hard to move out of that phase where I was loved…and I never knew pain. How was I supposed to know that it would end so fast? How was I supposed to know that we wouldn’t last?

There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever

You can hate me all you want but I was a child that never knew pain. I was sheltered only to be shattered from everybody’s grasp. The breakup killed a part of me; our love was my only escape from all the fuss around me. The pain that it brought me was immense to say the least. I thought I wouldn’t be able to face the world or even you. I felt broken…I felt lost without you.

I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

I tried to live in denial, and in a way it worked. I was unconsciously erasing everything that reminded me of you. I was tired of feeling weak. I was exhausted of pretending to be all right. I was disgusted to know that I depended on you this much.

But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

I thought that I was over you, at some point. I even felt alive and relief to know that I wasn’t as dead as I thought I was. I no longer felt broken. The fear that I had before was gone and I wanted to do the next step…see you. How wrong was I…you still held my heart after all this time. With every glance, every breath, every little touch…made me fall in love with you all over again.

 
There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby Baby

A part of me hated you for everything you said and I’m not going to sit here and lie to you…I thought of the times when we were together and all I wanted was to put a curse not only on you but myself…for being that weak. Somehow I never really could hurt you. I felt like I regretted a lot of things, but your ghost that lingered close to my heart…prevented me from truly feeling like that. If I could do it all over again…I wouldn’t.

If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back

I was always listening to screams and constantly having to look at the faces with disbelief written all over, when you came back into my life, but I never cared. What can I say? I was always weak when it came to you. How could I possibly ignore my feelings towards you? I’ve done that in the past and it never brings anything good.

There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper

We tried so hard to make our relationship last…but somehow we had so many things that were left unsaid that I would here them in every loud whisper. We hurt each other without thinking that it only made the wounds so much painful.

There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever

I was done…I had no more hope. We were just too different…I was not going to leave everything on the line once again. Maybe we were not meant to be.

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then

I had enough of the useless drama that you seemed to bring in life. My love was so easy and unselfish…it could’ve been so simple…no complicated situations needed. I had to rebuild myself again and I promised myself that I wouldn’t fall in your web.

But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

I found out that you just couldn’t let go that easily. You came back in my life and right then I knew that you were just meant to be in my life like I was meant to be in yours.

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby

If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me

(It's all coming back to me now)
And when you kiss me like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when I touch you like that
(It's all coming back to me now)
If you do it like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And if we…

  “Baby we were meant to be” I whisper in his ear with my eyes shut and with a big smile on my face.

“I love you with all my heart baby” he says while he caresses my face. “I love you too baby…this is definitely our song” I laugh and he soon joins in. “It sure is baby” he says while he takes my hand and puts it in his chest “Do you know…that you’re my heart?” he whispers I smile and take his hand and guide him to my chest too. “I know that I am your heart because you’re mine” and with that we kiss…yeah life is beautiful.