Choices
SS by Ing
We are constantly choosing among several paths to tomorrow, usually
unknowing, but not uncaring, of the end.
Often we are guided by nothing more than a gentle breeze blowing across our
hearts, seemingly constant in its ever-changing ways and directions.
Our choice today may not be ours tomorrow, but once made, must be followed to
know. Each of us must be willing to accept responsibility for our own choices;
we really need share little of the responsibility of the other's choice, that
being the duty of a parent to the young.
Since no one can know, at least with certainty, the end of the path chosen, the
choice often does not require an objective analysis. It surely must be better to
be guided by the direction of those gentle breezes across our hearts, for it is
always feelings which must dictate that which is unknown, that which is not
capable of quantification.
Have we made the right choices? As long as our choices are not static, they can
never be wrong. What we decide to day we must again decide tomorrow, this time
with a touch of objectivity from yesterday's experiences.
I wasn't sure what the future held and I needed an answer. Was I making the
right decision if I chose to leave? The conclusion was simple; there was no way
of knowing. There was nothing to base it on except emotion-following only my
heart in the beginning. That hardly seemed like the right way to make a decision
like this. One that would mean the rests of my life. I was used to making
decisions based on objective analysis, but decisions of the heart, I concluded,
are never made that way. How can they be?
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We constantly make what begin as decisions of the heart daily. The first day we
were together, it nothing but emotion that brought us together for that first
meeting. There was no history between us I could draw upon.We were 11 and 12.
When I say you again we were 16 and 17. I made the decision to do so based upon
my heart, and continue to make the decision daily. Oh, my heart is still
involved to be sure, but now I can look back on a relationship that grown and
blossomed over a long period of time with a sense of objectivity. Is love
objective? No! It remains an emotional response and I know because of the love I
feel I would commit irrational acts to save it or her. But, there is a certain
amount of objectivity for the decision I now make daily, and it is a daily
decision to stay away from her then, because it was for your own good.. With
each passing day I looked back, and made not only what remains an emotional
decision, but one tempered with experience of the joy, the happiness, the love,
the pain and most important, the friendship we have, by looking at yesterday,
the day before that, and before that-all the way back to that first day we got
together when it based only upon a whim.
Is there a moral to all of this? For me, yes, and I hope for many others also.
Our choices are never wrong because we make them over and over again with each
passing day. Therefore, a person need not fear the unknown. If your heart leads
you in one direction, follow the path it chooses. You'll know tomorrow or the
next day if you have chosen wisely. I have made two choices in my life. One
wrong and one right. And I have grown from both.