I stare out into the night, take a deep breath in and sigh. My heart aches once again for the one love I lost thanks to my stupidity. I cried so hard that sometimes I feel as though I can't breathe and my vision is blurred. I don't try to wipe the tears away like any other person would, I'm not like that. Why wipe them away when you know that they're going to slip down your face once again. I believe it's a waste of time, as though crying is too. I ignore it though, not feeling a thing. My body is numb as it has been these past few months, I can't feel anything at all, only that my insides turning, my heart breaking. I stare as the stars shine the dark blue sky, the moon's light illuminating alongside them. I'm really hoping right now that this pain or feeling that I'm feeling right now will go away, that once again I'll be able to stand and walk through out the world without a care in the world, to breathe once again, to live once again...to feel once again. I know it may not make sense right now, how can I feel pain, yet my body is numb? I don't know how it's possible, but all I know is that that's how I'm feeling right now. It's Ironic I know, but it's true. I turn around and take a walk around this dark mansion, the wood creaks at every step I take. I pass my fingers through my hair, my eyes scanning the darkness I'm buried in. I've dug a whole so deep inside that it's impossible for a person like me to step out of it. I finally find my destination and reach out for the phone. I dial the familiar number and in one instant the person I'm in love with answers.  Freeze and look around me, I take in a deep breath.

"Hello?" he asks into the phone. I sigh and stay quiet.

"Any one there?" Finally getting the courage I blurt out the words I've had inside of me that were killing me.

"I love and miss you, please come back to me" With that I do one simple thing, hang the phone back on its receiver. I walk out of the house and take a drive around the block. As I continue to drive the phone rings a couple of times and I stare down at it. I see his number flashing through the screen. I ignore it and press my foot hard against the pedal, the tires screech as I make a sharp turn. My body swings against the side of the car and get slammed against the door, I close my eyes but ignore the pain. I swerve through a couple of cars and the phone continues to ring. I finally answer it.

"Yeah?" I ask into the phone.
"I love you too" He whispers. I continue to press on the gas harder, better than before.

"I miss you" I return. I feel him smiling on the other line and I look down, never returning my attention back to the road.

"Same here, look we should meet once again. See me at my house in like 30 minutes" he answers.

"Okay" I tell him. We repeat the words once again, and then I finally look up. In one quick turn the tires screech and the car makes it safely around the car in front of me. But sadly the vehicle falls out of a cliff and crashes front first on the ground. I get slammed out the window and my whole body aches through out, I feel the blood trickle down my lips and my bones slowly breaking. My body slams against a tree trunk and I cry out in pain. I take slow deep breaths, but smile at the thought that he still returned my call and said the one thing that I needed to hear and to be honest with you that was all I needed. My body begins to slowly relax and the pain begins to go away, my eyes close shut and then...I never get to see the light of day.